School was being a bitch today. I don’t know why but I just couldn’t concentrate and all the teacher’s words just go through my ears but never stopping at the brain. So pissed.

The newspaper article this morning was really disturbing. It reminded me of a certain someone. It hurts. That was also bothering me the whole school period. So pissed.

Fuck off, woman. Get out, get lost. I don’t have a room for a bitch in my life. Stop stealing mine, go get a fucking life. URGHH.

If only I can directly talk to you, it would really be so nice scolding you. If only I was there, I would have slapped and killed you already. Bitch.

*SIGH* SO PISSSSSSSEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Okay, enough scolding. Finally I feel relieved after letting it go. I’m stupid enough to still remember her. Real stupid stuff.

HA! Thanks Farah for inviting me to your house just now. It was the moooossssstttt fun thing that ever happened today ;D Thank you. For once, I totally forgot what bothered me today.

Now that I am high all over again, let’s roll.

YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND; WHEN YOU GO DOWN WHEN YOU GO DOWN DOWN~

I seriously find that Malay language has been getting reaaaaaally hard these days, no, months. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I am prone to speaking in Indonesian language. But I can’t help it you see. It’s MY language and I find it really hard to understand and use the words in the Malay context, it’s just different and doesn’t make any sense to me at all. I’m sorry to whoever who feels offended, but I am just trying to pour my feelings upon failing my Malay.

No, don’t get me wrong. I am not sad or whatsoever, I am just starting to feel proud secretly. Somehow I think that I am still speaking, using and thinking using my original language context despite learning English and Malay. To tell you the truth, mostly, I have to think for a while during tests and exams to translate whatever in my mind into English or Malay. Hahahaha. It’s really hard.

But when I got home and told my aunt about me failing Malay, she was not that shock.

Me: Bunda, tau gak?! Aku fail melayu.

My Aunt: AHHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Tau gak?! Ilham masuk remedial melayu karena selalu fail. Memang kayak gitu, bahasa melayu sama bahasa kita terlalu berbeda. Memang susah sih, tapi kan mendingan dari ambil bahasa cina.

TRANSLATION

Me: Aunt, you know what?! I fail my Malay.

My Aunt: AHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! You know what?! Ilham (my cousin) has to go for Malay remedial because he always fail. It’s like that. Malay language and our language is really different. It’s hard, but it’s better than taking Mandarin / Chinese language.

So yeah, I think I really have to try harder to understand the Malay context. You don’t know how pai seh I am whenever in my composition or situational writing I accidentally put indon words and they will all be circled in red ink with a question mark next to it. My teacher must be having a great time laughing.

But look at the bright side, most probably I will only have to use this language for just a few months more and after that, I can freely use MY language whenever I feel like it. Total freedom. I can’t wait ;D

School was being a bitch today. I don’t know why but I just couldn’t concentrate and all the teacher’s words just go through my ears but never stopping at the brain. So pissed.

The newspaper article this morning was really disturbing. It reminded me of a certain someone. It hurts. That was also bothering me the whole school period. So pissed.

Fuck off, woman. Get out, get lost. I don’t have a room for a bitch in my life. Stop stealing mine, go get a fucking life. URGHH.

If only I can directly talk to you, it would really be so nice scolding you. If only I was there, I would have slapped and killed you already. Bitch.

*SIGH* SO PISSSSSSSEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Okay, enough scolding. Finally I feel relieved after letting it go. I’m stupid enough to still remember her. Real stupid stuff.

HA! Thanks Farah for inviting me to your house just now. It was the moooossssstttt fun thing that ever happened today ;D Thank you. For once, I totally forgot what bothered me today.

Now that I am high all over again, let’s roll.

YOU SPIN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND; WHEN YOU GO DOWN WHEN YOU GO DOWN DOWN~

I seriously find that Malay language has been getting reaaaaaally hard these days, no, months. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I am prone to speaking in Indonesian language. But I can’t help it you see. It’s MY language and I find it really hard to understand and use the words in the Malay context, it’s just different and doesn’t make any sense to me at all. I’m sorry to whoever who feels offended, but I am just trying to pour my feelings upon failing my Malay.

No, don’t get me wrong. I am not sad or whatsoever, I am just starting to feel proud secretly. Somehow I think that I am still speaking, using and thinking using my original language context despite learning English and Malay. To tell you the truth, mostly, I have to think for a while during tests and exams to translate whatever in my mind into English or Malay. Hahahaha. It’s really hard.

But when I got home and told my aunt about me failing Malay, she was not that shock.

Me: Bunda, tau gak?! Aku fail melayu.

My Aunt: AHHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Tau gak?! Ilham masuk remedial melayu karena selalu fail. Memang kayak gitu, bahasa melayu sama bahasa kita terlalu berbeda. Memang susah sih, tapi kan mendingan dari ambil bahasa cina.

TRANSLATION

Me: Aunt, you know what?! I fail my Malay.

My Aunt: AHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! You know what?! Ilham (my cousin) has to go for Malay remedial because he always fail. It’s like that. Malay language and our language is really different. It’s hard, but it’s better than taking Mandarin / Chinese language.

So yeah, I think I really have to try harder to understand the Malay context. You don’t know how pai seh I am whenever in my composition or situational writing I accidentally put indon words and they will all be circled in red ink with a question mark next to it. My teacher must be having a great time laughing.

But look at the bright side, most probably I will only have to use this language for just a few months more and after that, I can freely use MY language whenever I feel like it. Total freedom. I can’t wait ;D