End of year exam is over like finally.
Get back most of the results already but *sighs* quite a lot of you know how sucky they are.
I don't know. I don't have the motivation I had like the previous years. I messaged mom that I did badly this year and all her answer was none other than a "Hehehe." What does that suppose to mean, tell me. I think they are too busy to even care about the results like they used to, I don't know. I think I need some real scoldings, no, I NEED ATTENTION.
Please, just turn and look at me for a while. Scold me, shout at me, ANYTHING. Make me realise the mistakes I've done.No, I'm not going to blame it on anyone.Not you teachers, parents, friends, CCA or whatever else. It's just ME.
To tell you the truth, I actually learn a lesson from this year's result. Especially from the Malay language.
It was during this one Malay period not long before the exam. As you know, I am not a malay and I am bad at this language. You don't know how I struggled sometimes to even understand what the teacher is saying. And
some particular people have these incredible sharp tongues. They should win some awards for that.
I was asking
THESE PEOPLE what's the meaning of this one word.
They answered:
Eh Nabila, I can't believe you are this stupid. You don't even know what this word means. I wonder how you even get to be in this band 1 class.
Even if it was only a joke, it hurts. Pretty badly. Those sentences keep on ringing in my head, even until now. Not only during that period of time. It's like almost every malay period, all the thing that come out from their motor mouths were the word stupid,
stupid and
stupid. But this time round, they really hit the spot. I could not care about this language anymore and chose to just ignore it since I am that stupid. That was why some of you saw me not even doing any of the work and sleeping in class. I even flung the paper. (Luckily my old hag was not in Singapore at that time, so yeah, I can cry like some mofo in my room ;D)
So yeah. Again, I am NOT blaming anyone. It's just me who is so weak to be affected by these lame stuffs. And to think about it, it's hard for me to recover from this stupid state. Fuck it, yeah?
HAHA. See, brother. If you're reading this, I'll be really happy. I'm proving to you that I don't have a brilliant brain. I don't do things just like that. I do things according to my mood. If I feel like it, I'll study like one nerd. If there are things that affect me and I don't feel like doing it, I'll be like this, slacking. Kind of selfish, eh? I hate myself for that.
I failed, but I failed better.
OKAY. ENOUGH >:D
School was okay today. Had this one student forum thingy at the hall.
Teachers, I'll be reaaaaally glad if you read this. Just to tell you in case you don't or haven't realise this, you are actually shooting every comments we made, back to us. The discussion is going nowhere.
And whatever happens to the rule that says "No
personal attack"? You don't know how many people turn to look at me when one of you mention about "the neighbouring country not selling sand to this country". *EHEM* I actually feel '
personally attacked'. I believe there must be a reason to that which this country started first, right? I don't wish to take it as you're being 'countrist' here:D. There are many things I want to mention here about that but I ain't gonna write politics here.
I don't feel like typing anything else here. Maybe later.
HAHAHA. I agree with you, Haziq. We've got a busy end of year coming up ahead! :D
